You know what I've learned in the last few months? Apparently I'm not a real Indian. Apparently, going to grad school and questioning how Native people are portrayed in pop culture makes me less "real." I knew, in starting this blog, that being a white-looking Cherokee from SoCal trying to talk about Native issues would cause some problems, and my "legitimacy" would, at some point, be called into question. What I didn't anticipate was the shit hitting the fan over Tonto. *TONTO*.
So a disclaimer: In the post that follows, I'm going to be departing from my usual don't-engage-with-the-haterz approach, and calling some people out. This makes me immensely uncomfortable, and I fear what stirring the pot is going to cause in terms of repercussions. But I'm going to share my thoughts and opinions about how the things that were said to (and about) me in the last few months have made me feel, because if you haven't noticed, the blog's been silent for over a month. Also, this is about to be the longest post in the history of Native Appropriations (sorry!):A Tonto Timeline:
March 8, 2012: Johnny Depp as Cultural Appropriation Jack Sparrow...I Mean Tonto
I wrote this post quickly after seeing the "first look" pictures of Tonto in the new Lone Ranger. I inadvertently caused a firestorm by making a snarky remark about Johnny Depp's "Indian heritage"--which he says is "Cherokee or maybe Creek," and saying he wasn't an "Indian actor." The commenters, rightly so, reacted. And in reacting, called into question my ability to call myself Indian if Johnny couldn't.
March 15, 2012: Ray Cook writes a column in Indian Country Today called "Tontomania--Who are we'z anyway?"
Ray Cook straight up calls me out in this post, without referring to me by name. He said:
March 16, 2012: Why Tonto Matters
Written directly in response to Cook and others who said we shouldn't care about how Depp was portraying Tonto. I'm still pretty proud of this piece, and I constantly refer folks back to it when they say the issue doesn't matter. I ended the post with this, which I still believe to be the crux of the issue:
As the Depp drama continued to swirl, I compiled all of the s I could find in reference to Depp discussing the choices he made in costuming and creating his version of Tonto. I came to the conclusion that he totally missed the mark. The comments, however, still focused heavily on Depp's background, and whether or not I was being unjustifiably mean to Johnny.
So before I continue, let's notice that all of my posts focus on either 1) the choice of Johnny Depp to play Tonto 2) the costume and character choices Johnny made for his role, based on Johnny's own words, and 3) What "Tonto" means on a larger level in terms of representations, stereotypes, and our future as Native peoples. I said nothing about the Native actors in the films, nothing about the Native involvement in the film, I just talked about Johnny Depp. A public figure, who, as such, is open to criticism and questioning.
This is where things get interesting. In the comments on the post, I received a comment from actor Saginaw Grant, wishing to speak to the "author of this blog." I emailed him at the address he provided, and set up a time to talk with him, his publicist, and his personal assistant via phone. In hindsight, I'm not sure why I said yes, but I was also curious to hear Saginaw's thoughts, since he has a role in the film.
Fast forward to the phone conversation. I spent 2.5 hours on the phone being berated for my coverage of Tonto. Saginaw told me over and over again that the "Indian way" was "not to criticize" and that if I did so, I had "no right to call [myself] an Indian." I was told that "everything you know, you learned in books" and that all my degrees were just "pieces of paper." I was told I was being disrespectful to all of the Indian actors on the film, as well as the broader Indian community, and that if I continued to write, no producer would hire Indian actors ever again because they would want to avoid the "controversy," so I was hurting all Indian actors chances of working in Hollywood. They went on, and on, and on with all of the ways I had apparently messed up.
His team had written down tweets and s from my blog, read them back to me, and forced me to defend myself. I was in a horrible position, because if I defended myself and stood by my words, I would have been perceived as being "disrespectful" towards a "respected elder," so instead I avoided directly addressing their questions, to which I was called "evasive" and therefore, "disrespectful." I was so polite and tried to show the utmost respect, though I was shown none in return. I sat there, for over two hours, and listened as my identity was questioned and my writing torn apart. I listened carefully, because I know I'm wrong all the time--and if I was wrong about this, I wanted to know. But instead, the only message I heard was that I was not Indian if I dared question this film. At one point, after about the twelfth time I was told I had "no right to call [my]self an Indian"--I broke down and said (in Cherokee), "I'm Cherokee, not a white person." I didn't know how else to defend myself.
They did tell me that the spirit on the set was one of respect towards the Native actors, that care was taken to address any cultural concerns, and that there were Comanche advisors on the set making sure things were done right. They told me to wait until the movie, and things would make sense, and I would see how I was wrong. Considering that apparently Depp is speaking in broken English in the trailer...I'm not holding my breath. They told me that Johnny is such a nice and respectful man, and that he does many good things for Indian country. They've met him and interacted with him, and I haven't, so I have no right to judge him.
Before the end of our conversation, I reiterated my intentions with the postings, and apologized for any harm I may have caused. But I remember I said I was going to keep writing the blog, because it was my way of empowering our communities and making my ancestors and family proud of me. I don't ever remember saying I was going to refrain from writing about Tonto again.
Saginaw exited the conversation, and the tone noticeably shifted. His publicist and assistant shifted from anger to praise, telling me how my work was important, what I wrote was important, and things like hipster headdresses were a huge issue. They said I was an "inspiration" to younger Native students to see that I was at an elite university. I, admittedly, was surprised. I said that I would update the blog with the information they shared about the set, which they agreed to.
After I hung up the phone, I cried in my kitchen. The conversation was emotionally draining, and I felt like I had been given little recourse to defend myself. I had been judged for my perceived lack of respect or connection to my community, when they knew nothing of my family or my heritage. It hurt, a lot. To be told that this work that I put my heart and soul into was causing harm to my community felt horrible, even if I still believed in my gut that I hadn't done anything wrong.
I took a week off from the blog, and talked to a lot of my friends about the situation. They agreed that it was probably a lot of misplaced anger--Saginaw has come under some intense criticism for roles before, so they were probably trying to head off anything before it got too major. I thought it had blown over at this point, and went back to work, cautiously.
May 8th, 2012: Nelly Furtado's "Big Hoops" video: Native Dancer's represent!
I was so excited to see Nelly's video. I loved the way she incorporated the Native dancers, and thought it was a great example of positive Native imagery. But I, without thinking it would be a problem, noted:
Finally:
June 13, 2012: Crooked Arrows: The Good, The Bad, and The Flute Music
I went and saw Crooked Arrows, and had a lot to say about it. Again, I made the mistake of referencing the word Tonto in my intro paragraph. To which Saginaw responded:
The irony of this whole situation kills me--I'm not allowed to criticize Johnny Depp, a public figure, and we're supposed to lay off of him because he has "Indian heritage," is a "good person," and doing "good things" for Indian country.
But me, a Cherokee woman going to graduate school so I can give back to Native communities and help more Native students go to college, who puts herself out there for criticism and hate because I dare question how Native people are situated in our society, is not an Indian or even a good person. Why does Johnny get a free pass?
Let me remind you that this is all over TONTO. Tonto. A character that has gone down in history as one of the worst and lasting stereotypes of Native peoples, and continues to effect us today.
I'm not asking you to agree with me, I'm not saying I'm right--when I make mistakes, I own up to them, often. But don't feel I made a mistake in questioning Johnny Depp or Tonto, I don't feel my writing about the Lone Ranger makes me any less of an Indian, and I certainly don't feel I've shown "continual disrespect of elders." But taking this conversation from the words I've written to the realm of my family and my identity is not productive, and unnecessarily hurtful.
You can read my entire comment history on the blog, or this post I wrote after halloween last year to see how I've constantly noted that I don't speak for all Indians, and how I constantly reiterate that my Indian experience is unique to me. I try very, very hard in writing Native Appropriations to be real, gracious, and admit when I'm wrong.
I'm constantly told I'm not "Indian enough" to write this blog, which is frustrating, but admittedly comes with putting your thoughts and identity on the internet. I acknowledge that my white privilege has meant that I've been given hella opportunities, and am now in a privileged position to be able to sit here and write these ideas. But part of dealing with privilege is working actively to dismantle it. If I didn't use my strange combination of oppression and privilege to openly question, critique, and start conversations, I'd just be playing into the system that benefits from Native subjugation and white privilege--and that would be something to be concerned about.
I've been reading Scott Richard Lyon's X-marks: Native Signatures of Assent lately, and his thoughts about modern Indian identity, "acculturation," "assimilation," and even "nationhood" are fascinating, and have been super empowering to help me theorize and understand these blog-o-sphere interactions. He said, in a blog post about his book:
But instead of feeling ashamed, I'm trying now to turn the tables and think that I, instead, am the colonizer's worst nightmare. Because history has tried to eradicate my people by violence and force, enacted every assimilating and acculturating policy against my ancestors, let me grow up in white suburbia, and erased all the visual vestiges of heritage from my face--but still tsi tsalagi (I am Cherokee). My ancestors gave their "x-marks"--assents to the new--so that I could be here, fighting back against misrepresentations, through a keyboard and the internet.
So I care about how Native people are represented, and I will fight for our right to be portrayed with accuracy, dignity, and respect. So while "real Indians" might not care about Tonto, I do, and despite what others might think, I'm just about as real as you can get.
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